I’d like to share with you something I wrote in a recent e-mail to my neice who, along with her husband, is in full time ministry with Aviation Fellowship. Perhaps some of you can identify.
“I have been learning so much about trusting God through my experience of working with children with Autism. Sometimes it makes me chuckle to think that God had this all worked out beforehand, that He would choose ME of all people, to work with these precious children.
Not only is it contrary to my natural being (fears, comfort level, self image) but considering my weakest areas in the flesh and past experience with my own son, this was a most UNnatural choice of professions. Had it been up to me, I would have run in the opposite direction — oh yeah, thats right, I tried that! But God shows Himself most powerful in supplying our needs in areas where we have no resources of our own to lean on. I can only rejoice in amazement at the thigs He accomplishes.
I think Oswald Chambers called it being “dumped” into things. I can SO identify! It seems around every corner I am dumped into something I am sure I can’t handle on my own. Then I pray. And then, I go forward even if I am afraid, because I am constrained by the Holy Spirit to do so. And He never fails. And faith grows. Sometimes things happen, but He always delivers. Sometimes I am overwhelmed, but He brings peace. Sometimes I can’t see ahead, but He provides light to see just one step at a time. Sometimes I cry, and He always comforts. Sometimes I just don’t know what to do, but He supplies wisdom at the precise moment I need it. Sometimes I am exhausted, but He provides respite when HE knows the moment is right and I won’t use it to escape.”
Blessings!
Cathy
